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Grasping Reality

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Moving into adolescence my imaginary friends became a distant memory. The only reminder was if someone in the family would tease me about my spiritual crew. At this stage of my life I longed for friends who weren’t related to me. The problem was emotionally I felt like a square peg trying to fit into a round hole when I had to interact with anyone outside of my family. I was overwhelmingly shy and just the thought of rejection caused anxiety and panic attacks. I was generally an internal emotional mess, feeling awkward and out of place both mentally and physically. Most days I would have preferred to fade into the walls and become invisible

During this time I also activated my mental disappearing act. I would tune out from everything around me. In some cases I would lose large intervals of time. Was I daydreaming or was I starting the stages of astral traveling? I would learn later than that some of my missing time was due in part to astral traveling. I also learned that the things I thought were déjà vu were actually astral projection and I had already lived out that particular scenario.

In the beginning, daydreaming and astral traveling caused fear and frustration because I didn’t understand why or how it was happening. I did however notice that in some cases it seemed to be a form of protection when my mind didn’t want to deal with a situation emotionally or physically. Over time and with research, I've learned to understand and embrace each new experience that exclusively belonged to me.                                                            

  'Eyes are useless when the mind is blind'--Unknown

God Sent Me a Lesson

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"God never allows pain without a purpose in the lives of His children. He never allows Satan, nor circumstances, nor any ill-intending person to afflict us unless He uses that affliction for our good. God never wastes pain. He always causes it to work together for our ultimate good, the good of conforming us more to the likeness of His Son." -- Jerry Bridges

I recently had a medical scare with a loved one that completely threw me off my game. It was totally unexpected and I allowed fear to consume every part of my being. I created every conceivable negative scenario of the outcome including my loved one dying. Here I am a 'spiritual mentor' talking to people about how to enlighten their life, combat fear, and think positively and I failed to take my own advice. I soon had to acknowledge it was another lesson God sent me in relationship to my ego and humility; I got too 'uppity' and took my gifts for granted.

God in His infinite wisdom still sent people to me seeking assistance. Lord knows I didn't want to be bothered with anyone's problems when I felt overwhelmed by my own. I did talk to them and it actually soothed and uplifted my spirit. It brought me back to the perspective that even when you have problems, there is always someone with bigger problems than you. 

I'm only human and prone to failures, but I also have to embrace the messages sent to me and learn from them. It also humbled me and helped me to recognize that I have to take the advice I give to others and continually work with the tools in my spiritual tool box. God steered me back to my appointed path and I'm grateful.