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Grasping Reality

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Moving into adolescence my imaginary friends became a distant memory. The only reminder was if someone in the family would tease me about my spiritual crew. At this stage of my life I longed for friends who weren’t related to me. The problem was emotionally I felt like a square peg trying to fit into a round hole when I had to interact with anyone outside of my family. I was overwhelmingly shy and just the thought of rejection caused anxiety and panic attacks. I was generally an internal emotional mess, feeling awkward and out of place both mentally and physically. Most days I would have preferred to fade into the walls and become invisible

During this time I also activated my mental disappearing act. I would tune out from everything around me. In some cases I would lose large intervals of time. Was I daydreaming or was I starting the stages of astral traveling? I would learn later than that some of my missing time was due in part to astral traveling. I also learned that the things I thought were déjà vu were actually astral projection and I had already lived out that particular scenario.

In the beginning, daydreaming and astral traveling caused fear and frustration because I didn’t understand why or how it was happening. I did however notice that in some cases it seemed to be a form of protection when my mind didn’t want to deal with a situation emotionally or physically. Over time and with research, I've learned to understand and embrace each new experience that exclusively belonged to me.                                                            

  'Eyes are useless when the mind is blind'--Unknown

God Sent Me a Lesson

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"God never allows pain without a purpose in the lives of His children. He never allows Satan, nor circumstances, nor any ill-intending person to afflict us unless He uses that affliction for our good. God never wastes pain. He always causes it to work together for our ultimate good, the good of conforming us more to the likeness of His Son." -- Jerry Bridges

I recently had a medical scare with a loved one that completely threw me off my game. It was totally unexpected and I allowed fear to consume every part of my being. I created every conceivable negative scenario of the outcome including my loved one dying. Here I am a 'spiritual mentor' talking to people about how to enlighten their life, combat fear, and think positively and I failed to take my own advice. I soon had to acknowledge it was another lesson God sent me in relationship to my ego and humility; I got too 'uppity' and took my gifts for granted.

God in His infinite wisdom still sent people to me seeking assistance. Lord knows I didn't want to be bothered with anyone's problems when I felt overwhelmed by my own. I did talk to them and it actually soothed and uplifted my spirit. It brought me back to the perspective that even when you have problems, there is always someone with bigger problems than you. 

I'm only human and prone to failures, but I also have to embrace the messages sent to me and learn from them. It also humbled me and helped me to recognize that I have to take the advice I give to others and continually work with the tools in my spiritual tool box. God steered me back to my appointed path and I'm grateful.

We Are All Born Special

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Growing up with a large extended family we spent a lot of time together. There were many joyous moments but there were also many trying times that are still etched in my memory. A drawback of so many people with a multitude of dynamic personalities was endless erratic craziness. The family disagreements and violent behavior seemed to happen like a spontaneous combustion.

Like many children I had imaginary friends. During these turbulent times my spirits only jobs were to keep me safe and to be my playmates when I felt lonely. Nurturing a child's spiritual gifts can be as simple as not discouraging their play or conversation with their invisible friends. I was lucky enough to have a Mom who never suppressed my imagination.

The spiritual environment has shifted significantly over the years. Depending on the year of their birth you could have a Star, Indigo, Crystal or Rainbow child in your life. These multitudes of children come into life remembering their past lives, communicating with spirits and angels, showing the natural ability to use energy for healing, or exhibiting a deep knowledge of spiritual truths. They also can have an uncanny connection with others, animals and the universe. These beautiful gifts are often misunderstood as mental and behavioral disorders, making these gifts feel like a curse that require constant explaining. The effects result in many of these God given gifts being hidden, underdeveloped or sitting dormant.

My first memorable incident with spirit I can remember happened at 5 years old. It was so traumatic that I can still remember the episode like it was yesterday. I was standing on the steps of our home knocking on the door. My Mother looked out of the second floor window and said she would be down to open the door. A big gust of wind came out of nowhere. I ‘heard’ a voice say to put my sweater over my head and look down, which I did. At that very moment the second floor window pane fell out. The full window pane tumbled down towards me from two stories high at an accelerated rate. The corner of the fallen window hit the top of my head, then bounced off my sweater and cut my left cheek. It created a 1” scar in the top of my head and a 6” scar on my left cheek. If I didn’t receive the 'message' my head would have been spit open or it would have possibly killed me. I live each day with the scars but I am alive by the grace of God and my spirit guides.

"Sometimes I just look up, smile, and say I know it was you God, thank you!"

My Radical Faith

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My Radical Faith blog posts are small snippets of my thoughts, spiritual journey, and development through my experiences and trance writings. My hope is that something will encourage someone to initiate their search to connect with their path, higher self and higher power. It took 58 years of my life to genuinely understand the difference between spirituality and religion.

I embarked on a transition that has given me an enhanced perspective of my connection to everyone and everything in the universe. With my transformation I no longer believe that my gifts are evil and not of God.

They are gifts from the Creator, no different from a talented singer, artist or writer. I feel blessed to be an empath, light worker, healer and psychic, and live authentically. It has opened my consciousness and allowed me to speak and live in my truth. I will no longer allow my vision to be blurred by conventional societal concepts that define my spiritual beliefs, gifts, path and journey.

Self-acceptance has removed so many of my fears, anxiety, frustrations and the emotional imbalance I felt throughout my life. I have learned the importance of self-love, self-worth and self-care in expanding my spiritual development. My spiritual clarity has also opened up my understanding of the reasons my family has a high rate of religious extremes and mental illness. I whole heartily embrace who I am and I can finally live comfortably in my own skin.

Peace of mind is one of the most beautiful solaces in life.